Sep
17
Experiencing God
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Have been doing a horrible job of keeping everyone updated on what’s going on and I’m sorry about that. The last month has truly been a struggle as I continue to raise my initial financial support. But it seems when we are in the depths of the darkness, there we find the glory of God. When we realize we cannot do things on our own, we are forced to rely on Christ and it is then we are able to discover who He is and learn more about Him.
I have had many unanswered prayers during this time and I do not think it is an accident. I do not feel that God has ignored my cries nor forgotten about me. I think He is using this time for me to stop ignoring Him. I’ve been reading “Experience God” by Henry Blackaby and what I read last night is what I feel God has been doing through me. The author is describing the the story of the death of Lazarus. Jesus did not immediately rush to the cries of Mary and Martha to save Lazarus from death. He waited. This is what the author had to say about that:
“It seemed to me as if Jesus had said to Mary and Martha: You are exactly right. If I had come, your brother would not have died. You know that I could have healed him because you have seen Me heal many, many times. If I had come when you asked Me to, I would have healed him. But, you would have never known any more about Me than you already know. I knew that you were ready for a greater revelation of Me than you have ever known in your life. I wanted you to come to know that I am the resurrection and the life. My refusal and My silence was not rejection. I was an opportunity for Me to disclose to you more of Me than you have ever known.” And later he states, “Sometimes God is silent as He prepares to bring you into a deeper understanding of Himself. Whenever a silence comes, continue doing the last thing God told you and watch and wait for a fresh encounter with Him.”
I have experienced the greatness of my King during this time and although the last month has been really hard, it has been worth it because I have seen more of my God and the work that He can do.
Love you Joster! Hope you have a fabulous day, I’m praying for you sister!
My mom is coming to Minneapolis (not even going to attempt to spell that right, you know i struggle) on Thursday for a conference so if you see her wave
xoxo
~K