Jun
22
Belgium on the Horizon
Filed Under AIA Track & Field Ministry, Life
One week from today I will have landed in Belgium. I am so excited for this trip! God has already done some amazing things with this trip and shown up in huge ways. A small part of me is also looking to redeem myself. Last year was good…there were a lot of good things, but there were many things I regret and wish I would have done differently. But as crazy as this sounds, in all honesty, I would not change one bit of last summer. It is because of those hard times, because of those “mistakes,” I have grown so much this past year. I’ve learned from those mistakes and I believe it has made me a better person. Granted I’m not perfect and I know I’ll make mistakes along the way, I am definitely in a better place than I was last year. But I can hardly take the credit for that.
Our God is all about redemption and restoration. Just like in the parable of the Prodigal Son, our God is looking to the horizon waiting for us to return when we go our own way. When we make mistakes, he runs to us and embraces us. When I find myself in the middle of my own pity party, I can’t help realizing how selfish I am! In my pity party, it’s all about me. But this life is not about me. It’s about God. It’s about what he wants to do in me and through me. When I feel like a failure and doubt God can use me, that really says a lot about what I think about his character. Henry Blackaby put it best in his book, Experiencing God: “When you believe that nothing significant can happen through you, you have said more about your belief in God than you have said about yourself. You have said that God is not capable of doing anything significant through you. The truth is, He is able to do anything He pleases with one ordinary person fully consecrated to Him.”
My prayer, my desire for this summer is that God uses me in ways I could never have imagined. Of course there is a condition. I need to fully consecrate myself to God. I need to be available, I need to be open and I need to be willing. To put it very bluntly, I need to get over myself. This trip is not about me, but it is about God and his redemptive love story.